A word of encouragement!

Yesterday after I wrote my post about my struggle the Lord spoke this verse to me:

Isaiah 43:18-19
18 "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. 19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. (NIV)

18 "Forget about what's happened; don't keep going over old history. 19 Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand-new. It's bursting out! Don't you see it? There it is! I'm making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands. (Msg)

I just so happens that sweetmummy and Carin and have done a post with the very same verses, so it´s interesting to see how God is saying similar things to us! My cousin Karen also has this as a special verse for her too.

God is exhorting me to forget and not dwell on what happened in the nursing home... that He is going to do a new thing. I feel hope welling up within me. Thanks for your prayers!

My battle

This Friday my sister and I did our Red Cross visits in a town close by here. It was really nice to see them after the summer break, and they are always sooooooooooo happy to chat and catch up!

There is a couple that we used to visit that now have moved into a Nursing Home and no longer use the pendant/telephone services that the Red Cross provides, but we decided to look them up in their new home anyway.

What I didn't count on when visiting them was that I would be flooded with the negative memories of my time working in the nursing home. Click here for my post when I worked in the nursing home. It took all I had to ignore those feelings while we visited them . Because they were so happy to see us, I was able to survive our visit pretty well.

Needless to say, when we left, I felt overcome by feelings of sadness and failure. I was glad my sister was with me. I didn't feel like crying... when it hurts so bad sometimes it goes beyond the crying feeling if you know what I mean. It was a hit below the belt!

Since then I have been fighting against these feelings and gone over what I could have done, what I should have done...you know those mind games you play somehow hoping by doing so you can change history.

I am sick at how quick I am to believe the worst about myself. It is easy to just somehow get lost in the overwhelming feeling of it all. What makes it worse is we are in financial straights at present and the need for me to get employment adds pressure to this whole panorama.

I would appreciate your prayers and that God would do a work in me and provide the job I need to be able to keep our heads above water!!!! Thanks!

Oh look what the wind blew in!

I don´t know if you can recognize these objects on my kitchen floor...I am sure most mums do...but just in case the photo isn´t to clear I will let you know that they are: cheerios!



Yes that is right, the cheerio cereals. By now you are wondering what is going on in this scattered brain of mine. What would push me to take pictures of old cereals on my kitchen floor.?????

Well when I was cleaning the kitchen yesterday these cereals were nowhere to be found. But they did appear when I "swooshed" my mop underneath the fridge...Seeing those cheerios made my mind go back in time... I remember there had been an accident.



(Yeah right!!!!)

I ,very dumbly I might add, keep my cereals in one of my higher cupboards because it´s a small kitchen and that is the only cupboard that the cereal boxes fit it!!!!( yeah, why don´t they make them short and fat rather that tall and skinny???)

Well it doesn´t take too long to figure out what happened. You mix a child, standing on a stool and a box of open cereal.... what do you get???????? A cereal bath on the kitchen floor.

Naturally, time has passed on since that culinary tragedy, and just the other day while I was doing my cleaning bit, I rediscovered some of the remains of the cheerio mass. They had "snuck" underneath the fridge not to be seen! How sneaky can you get???



As I gazed at these remnant cheerios I was reminded at how there are issues in our lives that "sneak away" back into the archives of our hearts, but that come up again for round 2 as it were.

Not that they weren´t dealt with back then, but that through the swooshing of God´s heavenly mop, God brings to light remnants of a past hurt, struggle , injustice or temptation (fill in the blank!) because He wants to do round 2 of the healing process... Yes God´s got a spiritual cleaning company with the Holy Spirit as his CEO!



In the last couple of days, I have been struggling with issues of injustice that have happened in the past and God was bringing them up for round 2. Reading proverbs has served to bring great comfort during this spiritual cleaning session and I am giving God these left over cheerios and accepting his 2nd time around healing !!!! I am sure there will be round 3, 4 and 5 and 6 ...till infinity..or better said...heaven!

Even though God will continually be working on us... we know that: